Feeling pathetic and frustrated.

But the good side is, I can surf the net! (Kasi naman pagkakuha facebook, ym at gamis kaagad inatupag)

Yehey!

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Four days before my last day is my scheduled On-Boarding Seminar here in CS.
nang-aasar ba kayo?

I’ve mentioned previously in my previous post that my iPhone finally arrived.

And yes it is.

But my Laptop is showing me attitude I can’t describe. I know something is wrong and I can’t seem to carry my heavy ass to Sim Lim Square or Funan Digital Mall to get it fix.

But I somehow managed to setup my iPhone. I installed few applications to help me browse the net, take a peek at facebook, tweet, catch up in YM and most importantly, to play games.

By the way, I named her Legna. After the dragon from Drakengard II.So dork!

* * * * * Katangahan * * * * *

My iPhone film protector looks ridiculous! parang luma tuloy tingnan.ba naman, bastang salpak lang ang pagkakalagay na ginawa ko.inis.

Anyway, the cost of being irritated with myself plus the frustration of what my iPhone looks like is big compared to the cost of buying a 10 dollar film protector and having it attached free. Why be miserable? di ba?

* * * * * Jacket * * * * *

I also bought an iPhone Jacket.

This time with color! I’ll post the pic later.

My choice right now deviates from my previous preference of picking anything that is color black when it comes to gadgets, wallets and protector.

Simply put it, I want some color in my life right now after what I had been through. And color black is not helping hahahaha.

I need to get used to it. Although it’s not normal looking for me, I love it! It gives flare to my gadgets and another eye catcher aside from my t-shirts hahaha!

* * * * * Month End * * * * *

The End is nearing.

Survival will be my priority again.

“He” is not talking about it, might as well plan my next move.

I thought I was going to Phuket, Thailand. Sadly, the fares are so high I chickened out.
=’(

- – - – Family Trip – - – -

So it’s final, they will be coming over here on March (17-20) I think.

Ma and Pa.
Sis and Chris.
Tita Eva.

Now my problem is where to book them? It supposed to be just Ma and Pa and Sis but as Nuestra Unica Hija wanted, Chris and Tita Eva will come along.

Their number is too overwhelming for my peaceful sanctuary. our first idea is to separate them, but basing from our previous family trip, separating one from the group will definitely result in a disaster.

So how?

- – - – ThreeDays – - – -

I’m planning to go home for three days.

Not to relax.

Not to be with my family. (because they’ll be here anyway).

Not to satisfy my food cravings.

Not to go on vacation.

Not to meet friends (well… maybe).

Not to go to National Bookstore.

But to…

shop for playful/naughty shirts hahahaha.

para head turner ulit. lol!

- – - – Europe – - – -

Sis: beside fiumicino airport there is a train station right beside it. Board the one going to Milan. When you get there, you’ll easily see Hilton Milan because it is right beside the train station.

Me: . . . . OK. . . . (scared!)

I barely manage to locate the 7-11 in our street what more go to Milan alone.

DIOS MIO!

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On the other side of my blogpost.

My IPhone finally came!!!

Yippee!!!! Time to browse for free apps and games.

although my laptop is busted, booo!!!

iMac, next?

“Hey Gurl nasan ka na? on the way na me!”

Pinay pala.

Pero itong nakaraang araw, may nangyari sa akin na nakapagbigay sa akin ng pagpapahiwatig na dapat magdahan-dahan ako sa aking kinagigiliwang gawain.

ganito kasi yan. Nasira ang pinakamamahal kong laptop, well actually hindi naman talaga nasira na as in sumabog. Yung screen nya bale eh tinotopak. As of this writing, medyo may pagkadrizzly ang display ng laptop ko na parang sa tuwing magtatype ako eh lumilindol sa loob ng screen ko.

Noon, ang presyo nito eh napakamahal kumpara sa sinusweldo ko kaya talaga namang mahal na mahal ko ang laptop ko. Ito ang naging katulong ko para makapaghanap ng work dito sa singapore, this become my way of communicating to the people that matters to me, ito ang naging primary source of entertainment ko (thru watching porn. CHOS!) at higit sa lahat this machine keeps me insane.

Kaya seeing my laptop in this state really upsets me. kung nasa pinas ako at kung hindi pa tapos ang warranty ko malamang madali ko na itong napagawa. Pero yun nga wala ako sa pinas at wala tapos na ang warranty ko.

so how?

Sa sobrang depress ko, I did the most stupid thing on earth!

(BODY STEP + BODY PUMP) * empty stomach = SUICIDE!

It was tuesday when I did that, the sensation is like close to having a cardiac arrest, my head feels numb and I can feel my blood sugar is way down because of lightness that I feel plus my vision is blurry and shakey. “Something is wrong” that’s what I said to myself. I weighed myself and found out that I lost almost to 4 kilos in just one night. (UNHEALTHY!)

I panic! I told myself that there’s a sure chance that I will never wakeup in the morning if I sleep in this state. So I hurried downstairs and horde some food that I can find at our kitchen.

Thank God for the Labi family! I was saved. They left a meal for me, enough meal to replenish me. I rest a little after eating my meal.

And then while resting, it hit me. My supposed to be “expensive” laptop is broken, I can easily replace the parts needed to restore it back to its previous state with the money that I am earning. No matter how expensive it is.

But by working out in full energy with an empty stomach, ok I don’t blame the workout I still love it, I am endangering the second most expensive thing in my life. My health is being compromised.

OK, (balik tagalog) masira man ang laptop ko madaling palitan yan, pero kung sakaling natulog ako ng ganun ang nararamdaman ko at walang laman ang tiyan, kung paggising ako na may kulang na sa akin, tingin ko ba mabilis ko rin itong mapapalitan katulad ng sa laptop ko? o mapapalitan ko pa ba ito upang mabalik ang aking dating sigla?

With what happend to my laptop, now I understand that pushing yourself way to the limit is not always a good idea. Mahirap pa naman kapag ang health ang nawala sa isang tao.

Kapag nawala yun, paano na mga pangarap ko? Ang mga magulang ko? Ang mga anak ko? Ang mga pinag-aaral ko? ang mga binubuhay ko? Ang mga pinapadalhan ko ng pera pambili ng rugby at droga? Paano na ako magpapadami ng lahi nyan?

I am most thankful to God for giving me this realization.

Never again I will do workouts with an empty stomach. Thank God! I don’t have to lose a vision just to realize that.

hindi ako naghiatus or anything.

tinamad lang ako magBlog.

let’s say na gusto ko lang ng …

A Moment of Silence.

.Singapore.Fired.New.Job.Friends.Travel.

Ang sarap magdrama!

Alam nyo yun, gusto mong matulog tapos may kung sinu ang manggigising sa iyo. BABATUHIN pa ang bintana mo! Kung mabasag yun! ang mahal pa naman sa Sing!

Kaya kahit bugnutin akong gumising, pinilit kong tumayo para buntalan o sigawan kung anu ang problema ng hinayupak na yun at nang-iistorbo siya!

Pagdungaw ko sa bintana…

TANGINA!!!!

SI JOLLIBEE!!!!

tangina wala akong pake kahit gumamit pa siya ng wrecking ball para gisingin ako! Yayakapin ko siya!

kaya dali dali akong bumaba para salubungin siya! iha-hug ko si Jollibee at iki-kiss ko siya! TORRID!!! WITH TONGUE AND GUMS!!!

biglang nag-alarm ang cellphone ko…

Monday na pala!

Na miss ko lang ang Pinas!

SHIT!

Anyway, nakita ko siyang online minsan sa YM at nakita ko ang Status nya na nag-sosorry sa classmates niya over something so trivial, at dahil sa maepal ako tinanong ko siya, anyway basahin nyo na lang ang naging usapan namin sa YM at saksihan kung gaano ako kabait na professor at kagaling sa pagbibigay ng advice.

click nyo para mas malake!

kaya kids, hwag kayong matakot na mapagalitan.

Actually kaya kami pumunta doon eh para bumili ng gamit pambahay na ipapadala ko sa Pinas. Well, actually sila din bumili hindi lang nila ako sinamahan.

Kasi ganito yan, nung isang araw kasi nakita ko si housemate Spica na naglabas ng isang malaking karton mula sa kanilang kwarto. At dahil sa mala-tsismoso attitude ko, tinanong ko siya kung para saan yun. At don ikinuwento sa akin ni Spica na pupunuin nya yun ng mga kagamitan na papadala niya sa Pinas. At dagdag pa ni Tita Ruby na kung gusto ko raw bumili rin nun eh sabihin ko lang dahil may discount siya sa balikbayan.

Oh di ba? ang poporma nina housemates, they make my life easier. Ngayon pwede na akong magpadala sa Pinas ng kung anu anong bagay na pwede mapakinabangan ng aking pamilya including my old stuff na pwede nilang ibenta sa Ukay-ukay hahahaha. At siempre sinu pa ba ang unang makikinabang ng balikbayan box kung di si…

IRMA!!!

liligaya na naman ang nanay ko kasi hindi na pahapyaw ang makukuha niyang pasalubong here from abroad. Actually hindi na rin ako mahihirapan na pasalubungan lahat ng gusto kong pasalubungan kasi nga may paraan na, kahit gaano pa ito kabigat. YEBBA!!!

Kaya Chris, yung mga pahaging mo na “Bili mo rin ako” magkakatotoo na yan! Maghihintay ka na nga lang hahaha.

Excited na akong mamili ng kung anu ano! bwahahahahaha!

Sa lahat ng makakabasa nito, sinu sa inyo gusto ng PASALUBONG?!

GAME!

2. I like anything RED. RED is my favorite color.

3. My first playmate is my grandmother from my father side. She spoiled me with candies and Filipino treats. She died months right after my father fulfilled his promised to her, so fulfilling promises is very traumatic for me, please don’t make me promise.

4. I think I am beginning to accept that I am the “black sheep” among my siblings (not in the bad way). They can draw, I can’t. They can sing, I can’t. They are friendly and sociable, I am shy. They are popular in school, my class adviser can’t even recognized me. They have this aggressive personality, I lean towards the passive personality. To add more, I look very different from them that other people can easily tell that they are siblings while they can regard me as an adopted child.

5. I am a very disobedient to my parents before . Thank God, they didn’t give up from understanding me.

6. I love eating vegetables, my Auntie Luz taught me how to love
them. My favorite vegetable is AMPALAYA. I love its bitterness.

7. I’ve been a Team Leader/Senior Programmer and College Professor in De La Salle University – Dasmariñas, Part-Time IT Instructor in Informatics, a graduate student in Ateneo Information Technology Institute, I studied level 3 Spanish in Instituto Cervantes De Manila, I also studied Level 1 French in Francais Alliance de Manille and I’m self-studying photography. All of these happened in a year, I didn’t know how I manage my time to do all of these but I somehow did. I forgot to mention, I am also taking care of two golden retrievers at that time.

8. I had my first dog when I was 22, a Golden retriever, he is the smallest of the litter and the only one who approached me. I named him ORO, means gold in Spanish, my brother, Christian, suggested the name. One time he got sick, for three days I didn’t go to office just to nurse him back to health, I thank God he survives.

9. I eventually took ownership of Oro’s sister, a dark brown golden retriever. She’s very different from Oro, has a deeper voice and naughtier than her brother. I named her Chiyo after the protagonist of the book “Memoirs of a Geisha.” I miss them! =’(

10. People think that I am living an easy life, free of stress, that I have no problem, I have an easy work and comfortable living. little they know that underneath this jolly and stres-free exterior is a managed chaos waiting to explode any moment. I just know how to manage my life.

11. I do impulsive decisions most of the time. Like moving and working here in Singapore. Thank God it’s working out!

12. I go for the extreme rides in carnivals. Thanks to my older sister who forced me to accompany her to ride the rollercoaster when I was 5 years old in a local carnival. Mind you, my sister is a daredevil. The dangerous the ride, the better for her.

13. I am afraid of snakes. But I do love touching them.

14. I tend to ignore the people around me when I am alone in public. That’s how I can get around in crowded areas. It is as if I am the only one in the place.

15. If I like the song, it will be the only track in my playlist. I will listen to it over and over until I get sick of listening to it.

16. I’m 3 units away from completing my Master’s Degree. All I’m lacking is the oral defense for my paper. I lost the motivation when La Salle granted me a permanent faculty status.

17. I don’t like eating cake, I rarely eat one, even in occassions I avoid eating cake.

18. I forgive and I forget easily. My life is too short to be unforgiving, I don’t keep bad memories, I let go of anger easily and I want to be at peace all the time. I put my pride into good use and I won’t use it to be a hindrance in giving and asking for forgiveness. Life is too short, let’s be MERRY!

20. I love living here in Singapore. I thought at first that I’ll be having a hard time being independent and living here but it is working for me. If not for the cheap clothes, friends and my family, I won’t go back to my home country. I love it here!!!

21. I know it’s a cliche but I regard photography as more than my creative hobby going as far as having my own motto, “I will capture, enhance and preserve what is beautiful.” But I don’t enjoy being photograph, look at my photos, I looked like a retard.

22. I find it fascinating to get lost in a foreign land. My trip is not complete without that happening.

23. I enjoy eating alone in restaurant, that way I am able to quietly and slowly inhale my food, unlike with friends in which I talk, laugh and eat fast when I’m with them. Actually I enjoy my alone time, the one thing that I was able to do here in Singapore.

24. I don’t watch TV, I prefer to watch everything in my laptop.

25. I am an impulsive buyer/spender. I spend too much for myself and I enjoy it!